The Case of the Ex

When I came back to the office after the meeting with IDR and Myevents at Bangi Hotel, I met Nadiah and we were talking at the office pantry together with my two bosses. She brought up about how I have involved in a school drama back in Shahbandaraya, I honestly couldnt remember I have joined any drama till she mentioned Amzarul's name.

She said: "Alah, kan masa tu Amzarul baru masuk skolah kita, then dia trus dapat role jadi husband ko, ko tak ingat ke?"

Then it hit me. I haven't seen him in 10 years, he left Shahbandaraya where we were in Form 3. We dated for a while just after the drama ended, then he moved to a different school. Well guess what, today he added me on Facebook.

This is like Afiq's case all over again. Soooo tiring.

First thing he said to me in dm was:

"Where have you been? I didn't know you have a Facebook. How are you lah? How's life?"

We exchanged contact starting from there and we talked on the phone. Actually, I just finished talking to him just now, LOL.

We were talking about school, Raja Rozita (ohgod, he remembered about our meeting with Raja Rozita, that was like my first time kena panggil dengan PK HEM). 

After all that, and theeeeen he brought up the question. 

"So, are you like single now? Mingle-ing? or un-available?"

I said: "Uhhhh, hey why not we talk about your crazy ex girlfriend? ;D"

Him: "No no, you're not gonna do this to me again, spill it. Or you know what, I'm meeting you tomorrow after you balik kerja, lets catch up, really miss you babe."

Me: "Riiiight, fine fine, where?"

Him: "Anywhere, just hit any, I'll be there. I wanna know what happen to you and that guy from school who I thought was your adik angkat."

So there it goes, meetings after meetings after meetings. And I bet this is not gonna be good.


&& Another thing. Islam texted me this morning, asking for khabar and how's life treating me. I shoot him with one question right after I answered his question;

"Hi, I sihat, you na apa?"

That's it. Enough lah weh. Drama benaw lah.

Happy Birthday Naddy

I just came back from meeting Waifus and it's only almost midnight. Omg, I'm exhausted, I haven't spend time with myself just lying on bed playing my phone in weeks.
I went out to attend my own birthday party last night at The Royale Chulan's club and came back at 10am this morning. I took a nap for an hour and a half and went for birthday lunch with my mom. Gosh, how did I do it in college? I'm too old for this shit.
I used to love this lifestyle, going out day and night, I still do but I got tired and I tend to appreciate my sleeping time more.
I still need to go out tomorrow to do some shopping and go to tarawih later at night.
The boys are asking for a meet up, they're starting to get pissed, especially Prince and Tony. Saying that we used to hang out every week. Well. that was back when I was still studying. Gah!
I still owe Gila Boobs a lunch date thou, omg....TT_TT But since it's Ramadhan soon, we may need to plan an iftar instead of a lunch. And Tessa isn't gonna stay here long, she has to fly back to the UK.


Me and the Waifus are planning on going for a short visit to Jitra somewhere in September. Huril's due in 2 months from now. Can't waaaaaait!

The BIG Deal

I just started working under Al-Kauthar couple of weeks ago. But not for long, only for several months 'til the big event.
What I do is to handle an event organized by the Institut Darul Ridzuan, Perak. It's such a big opportunity for me, this really helps me in improving my PR skill. Talking bout the people that I'll be meeting, let's just say that all of them are "ikan besar";
1) Sultan Nazrin (Sultan Perak) ... Oh.Em.Gee the hottest sultan
2) Menteri Besar Perak
3) CEO of Institut Darul Ridzuan, Doc Mazalan. (I've met him, cute gila, funny, down to earth kinda guy)
4) Najib Tun Razak (Yes, you heard me)
5) the Deputy, Zahid Hamidi (do you need some water for that burn? carry on..)
6) 150 top CEO's from 20 countries! (*screams* omputeh weh, mana na kutip yang kaya2? kat sini je lah!)

*coughs* Now, my job is to find potential sponsors for the event, and I already got some of the big big big guys from the big big big companies around my finger. (Yeays! Alhamdulillah)
Yes, this is it. This is what Azmer, Adib, Nadiah, Faez, Afiq (Jasni) has been telling me all along. The "rezeki yang tak disangka2". Amin YRA, thank you guys for your du'a!

The Ex's Bestfriend

I just came back from Mid Valley, I really wanna rant something here.
Something weird has been going on lately.
Well, for a start, (flashback) Afiq has this one bestfriend named Redzuan or they usually call him Wan. They've been friends from what I know, since before we dated in highschool. I've never talked to him actually except that one time we met at their friend's wedding, well he was talking about calculus, so I had to interrupt.
He started texting me on Instagram, and like asking what I was doing, have I started working, where I work. This got even weirder when he mentioned about Afiq. Like what happened to you guys? Like why did you guys broke up, whats the main reason, do you have someone new and everything.
I wouldnt consider its weird if he's a friend of mine, or Adib, cause basically Adib knows everything about me and Afiq. But Wan wasn't anybody I knew, I mean I knew him but I wouldn't consider him as a friend or acquaintance. To have someone you just started talking to couple of days ago asking you about everything that has been happening in your life at one time, it has to be something.
& guess what, he texted me everyday eversince.
He would ask where I've been, how's my work, and like just now, he was kinda surprise that I told him I just came back. He would say something like "Lambatnya you balik, pergi mana".
Just now, he asked whether we could hang out at mamak near my house. And like whether he could follow me if I were to go anywhere tomorrow. I told him I'll be meeting a friend in KL tomorrow, then he asked if its a guy, if he's my boyfriend and all. So weird.

I confronted him about this, I asked whether this has to do with Afiq asking him to contact me. He said no. & like how they haven't met since the wedding and all that.
He even asked me this; "Dulu you pernah nampak I tak kat sekolah?"
Ish..

Lying in bed, listening to Close by Nick Jonas. In a dimmed light, I'm wandering, again.

The song is really addictive.

Nothing much been done today, actually nothing at all. I should have started studying for the exam next week. I will tomorrow, I'm thinking of sitting at Delicious with my laptop on and study myself, or should I go to the library? Either two.

When I was looking through my phone just now, I suddenly thought of the voice note I left for him. 

So I end up listening to all of the voice notes I sent him all this while.

Most of them are very flirty, well all of them.

Oy, I should stop. Not worth the time..

Oh Paul Varjak, you had me at hello. Listening to Moon River reminds me of you. How shall I get over you?
I just need this and only this every morning when I wake up. I won't get anything done. Hah!

So long, friend.

He came to my house today, to drop an invitation.
Rash, we started talking again mid last month. Strange, everyone has been looking for me when I'm actually just sitting here being all fat.
Last time we talked was 2009, a year after I graduated highschool. We dated back when I was 17, I moved from Shahbandar to Sri Istana, and he was my only boyfriend back then. The relationship only lasted for 3 months+. After I found out he flirt with a junior.

Anyway, when he texted me last month, as usual the first question that came out was "Mana you menghilang? Sihat?".
I don't know myself.
When he stopped by just now, we had a long conversation. I cried once, just cause he asked me how's my boyfriend been. I miss talking to him, we used to talk like bestfriends back in school. He always know what to say, he knows how to comfort me.
And just now would be our last conversation, he's marrying someone next Sunday.
I couldn't be more happier. He was a really nice guy, soft spoken, the girl is very lucky to have a guy like him.

All this while, I didn't appreciate what I have and what I can offer. I let people push me anywhere they want, whenever they want. People often use me, and I end up being hurt.

I have loved so much, I'm tired. This time around, I'm gonna find myself my own Paul Varjak.
I will find someone who will appreciate me, and tell me how much they love me just like Paul did to Holly.

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